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don't mistake my failure to declare myself an eager blushing bride for cynicism
have you ever been in love? like, really truly? because i love him. there are things he does or won't do that drive me crazy up to and including making me want things that i never, ever would have thought i wanted and now that i do they're not things i can have. nations aren't supposed to ever get this close to citizens. and i'm not talking some capulet-montague bullshit, i think it really messes things up. i mean, people have pre-nups for their money and their careers and all kinds of shit. how do you work out a pre-nup for the safety of sixteen million people? because i didn't just fall hard for some stubborn, mulish, beautiful man who acts like scowling at everything that happens could ever hide how gentle and kind he can be. i fell for a nation.
if i loved a preacher I wouldn't ask him to give up god for me. if i loved a father i wouldn't ask him to risk his children for me. for him, it's somewhere in between. maybe both at once, i don't know. and maybe you're right, maybe i don't know what he'd say if i asked. maybe he wouldn't just freak out if i suddenly decided i want babies and white picket fences. but i do know that if i asked him for that i wouldn't deserve it, because i'd be asking him to give up who he is. and that wouldn't be love at all.
if you loved a preacher youd take something of his faith into your life. if you loved a father youd have his babies in it and youd do a damn fine job. I dont know much about the physics of nations and less when I talked to ned than I do now. maybe if you got married all the female descendants of dutch origin would spontaneously amputate a leg and I won't have that on my fucking conscience
cat's out of the bag now though you might as well talk about something unless you'd really rather not. Honestly Im not even sure why he brought it up, he was quite out of it when we spoke
[Not coincidence, him not picking up the thread about having fallen in love, but there are any number of obvious and boring guesses that would be correct as to why.]
she only meant to yell at him how did this happen]
i wasn't joking about soap operas. i can hear it in the background when he's talking. some politician is marrying somebody evil, he said. he also said you talk too much. gave it the ring of truth.
i don't know. i'll just keep talking to him and see where it goes. he'll probably be distracted in about three minutes anyway. just remember that if I show up on your doorstep an hour from now drunk and crying you only have yourself to blame.
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don't mistake my failure to declare myself an eager blushing bride for cynicism
have you ever been in love? like, really truly? because i love him. there are things he does or won't do that drive me crazy up to and including making me want things that i never, ever would have thought i wanted and now that i do they're not things i can have. nations aren't supposed to ever get this close to citizens. and i'm not talking some capulet-montague bullshit, i think it really messes things up. i mean, people have pre-nups for their money and their careers and all kinds of shit. how do you work out a pre-nup for the safety of sixteen million people? because i didn't just fall hard for some stubborn, mulish, beautiful man who acts like scowling at everything that happens could ever hide how gentle and kind he can be. i fell for a nation.
if i loved a preacher I wouldn't ask him to give up god for me. if i loved a father i wouldn't ask him to risk his children for me. for him, it's somewhere in between. maybe both at once, i don't know. and maybe you're right, maybe i don't know what he'd say if i asked. maybe he wouldn't just freak out if i suddenly decided i want babies and white picket fences. but i do know that if i asked him for that i wouldn't deserve it, because i'd be asking him to give up who he is. and that wouldn't be love at all.
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cat's out of the bag now though you might as well talk about something unless you'd really rather not. Honestly Im not even sure why he brought it up, he was quite out of it when we spoke
[Not coincidence, him not picking up the thread about having fallen in love, but there are any number of obvious and boring guesses that would be correct as to why.]
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she only meant to yell at him how did this happen]
i wasn't joking about soap operas. i can hear it in the background when he's talking. some politician is marrying somebody evil, he said. he also said you talk too much. gave it the ring of truth.
i don't know. i'll just keep talking to him and see where it goes. he'll probably be distracted in about three minutes anyway. just remember that if I show up on your doorstep an hour from now drunk and crying you only have yourself to blame.